Personal #1 - What I learned in 2016

Such a very late post but it's still January so please consider the whole month as the proper time to write a New Year's stuff.:9  Earlier this month, an accident happened so it kinda refrain me from writing this mandatory post. I'll talk about it later so let's stick to the title. A not-so-short talk about 2016.

Checkpoint #25 | Quarter Life

As usual, this is an annual birthday-related post that I personally write for my personal records. However I come up with something different this year since I'm one of those who enter the 'quarter life stage'.

I don't know who started this silly tags but since early 2016, all my friends (who were born in the same year) started using this 'Quarter Life' phrases to 'remind' ourselves that we are no longer kids and deep into adulthood whether we like it or not. I'm actually someone who are pretty strict about age, as I think age is some kind of restrictions for me. I'm used to set my own goals, what to do when I reach on age 20 and so on. Someone tell me when you're above 25, age is only a matter of number, it has nothing to do with life. Perhaps I am somehow understand the reason why.

Hello 2016

Hello everyone! I know it's kinda late but Happy New Year to all of you. As usual, I will start my annual post about the end of the year.

December is one of the busiest month, at least for me. My mom's birthday, Pat's birthday, and our anniversary. Not forget to mention, workload is increasing like hell too. I was so excited because things are totally different after we moved out (read here for the story about our moving).

Farewell

Life sure has its up and down. Sometimes we are on top and at the other time we are at the bottom. There is no such thing last forever. People and things could change as the time flow. Sure I am aware of the basic rules of life. However, I feel like the whole 2015 was frozen in my mind as I couldn't even remember how it started. At least that's what across in my mind when it comes to the end of 2015.

Going back to the exact time last year. In the end of 2014, I see that 2015 is a year I've been waiting for. I feel like everything was settle and I will reach another checkpoint in my life. I remind myself about what to do when I'm turning 24. I had such a lot of plans, goals, and things in my mind. Few days after the new year, things started floating to the surfaces.

In the beginning, I didn't think it was such a big deal. A lot of things happened where ever I go and apparently not a good one. It seems I don't have a place to fit in.  It didn't last me long to handle such a lot of thing in such a short of amount of time. Three months afterward, things were just getting worse and it is one of the hardest time when I had the worst mental breakdown. I rarely talked to my friends and avoid any kinds of meeting. Remember Elsa in Frozen's movie? Never think I would be in the same situation. All I could do is shut people out and be alone. I'm afraid that I would hurt people in my current state although they understand and seems fine with it. I kinda understand how it feels to be under serious depression and how it could lead into serious attempt that might risk your life. I need such a long time to get things back on track.



Everything seems like a big mess. As a very complicated tangled knots in my life no matter how hard you tried. I started to pray a lot and a very good friend of mine told me to keep in my faith that the best is yet to come.

It might sounds cliche, but then I don't know a better word to address it.

MIRACLES HAPPENED.

By the end of the year, we're just talking about moving out. Few days afterward, a serious matter happened and we were finally urged to move out. Something serious enough that could shut people up of disbelief. Something unpredictable and not even once across in my mind. I was in a state of shock for only few days but then I just feel relieved. God answered me... in a way that no one could ever imagined before.

I still could hardly believe that everything happened in a flash and we actually started living a new life already. A lot of things happened in 2015 and I learned my lesson. When you need a long-break, just take your time, there is no need to rush things. When you need time to be alone, don't be so hard to yourself. I never think that I could enjoy life more than this. It feels like my life has started ticking again. Just in the right time. 

An Insight of Beauty Rules

The first time I was introduced into the makeup artistry and beauty industry, I was overwhelmed by a lot of things. There are a lot of things I need to understand. When I started to learn about make-up, I don't know the benefits of primer, the importance of countouring, blending, and tons of other make-up techniques. I thought it was normal since it is not my expertise and I only need more practice.

The more I learn about it, the more time I spent to put on my make-up. I'm worry if I didn't do my makeup neatly. There are times I feel kinda frustrated when I didn't get things right or tired when I need to do A-Z thing only to go out with friends.

In graphic design world where I am working on, designers are advised to learn from tons of inspiration in order to deepen their taste and imagination. There are no absolute boundaries about it. There are no guidance about what's good or bad. From what I had experienced, what I usually do is simply take things that I could use and keep the others that I don't need for the other time as a reference.

I think the same rules is applied in my beauty routine. Honestly, I enjoyed learning about the new techniques and trends but in the end I was the one who decide about what kind of look I would like to pull out on myself. 

It is fine to go out without your makeup on.

It is fine to draw an imperfection eyeliner. 

It is fine to wear no lipstick.

It is fine to leave your brows as how it is.

It is fine to have red hair.

It is fine to have a messy buns.

There are nothing wrong with a heavy smokey eyes or red lips, but I would prefer to wear them on occasional events such as wedding party. There are nothing wrong with no makeup look because I want things to be simple for my daily routine.

The same thing goes for how I love dressed in pastel color and flower pattern when I'm feeling kinda sweet or the boyish kinda look when I go out with the boys. I love how I define myself in various way and I am proud of it.

I have my own preference when it comes to how I describe myself. If there's anyone who talk unpleasantly about how you do things, just take it as a good critics. We will not get hurt from learning though. 

Last but not least, have your own confidence shine through whatever you put on the outside and be yourself :)

Happy birthday to the one of inspiring female network that I'd ever known. I feel like I had learn and grown so much since the first time I joined into the community. 

#YourBeautyRules

Hello 2015

The old 2014 year has passed and we're currently moving forward into 2015. I can't never believe how time flies so fast. 

Therefore, here are several updates during the holiday. 

First celebration goes for Pat's Birthday and our 5th anniversary. These two things always come together every year considering he set our anniversary date right after his birthday on purposes. 

Pardon for the fierce looking and inappropriate but I can't help for not posting this lol. At least one photo can be forgiven hahaha. I'd secretly prepared a surprise party with his friends. The plan was nearly failed but we finally managed to make it happen.